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"Heavy Cross"

C O M I N G  OF  A G E
2011 - Part I:
Heavy Cross

I brought in 2011 with a kiss from the only man I’ve ever fallen in love with. I spent the evening with some of the most amazing and beautiful people I’ve had the privilege of knowing. It was majestic. Even as I hit some really rough patches not too long after that, Blair was my rock. When shit hit the fan, he helped keep me steady. Our relationship wasn’t easy. We had 18 years and two states between us; but it was all worth it.

I’ve never been able to trust someone enough to let myself love them. No one else has ever gotten that far beyond the walls. It was intoxicating, it was real, and we deserved each other. He introduced me to this band.

It’s a cruel, cruel world
to face on your own
a heavy cross to carry alone
The lights are on
but everyone’s gone
and it’s cruel…

I trust you
if it’s already been done - undo it
It takes two
and it’s up to me and you to prove it.

This year was about being able to love in the face of adversity. It was about trusting someone both emotionally and sexually. It was about proving my own pessimism wrong. It was about redefining romance on my own terms, and working every day towards being the person I want to be.